Experience is School; Language not required

A lot of changes happened.

The same energy that drove me out of school also drove me out of IL.

You can mentally destroy anyone just by having enough people create similar thoughts at the same exact time.  It’s so powerful that it would just be better for those same people to focus collective thoughts toward some better future instead of a skinny 25 year old.

I got that same feeling - my head was burning.  It was so bad i took it out on my family.  I hit my sister, my brother even my mom and i broke a lot of furniture.

The next morning, early, i walked out and left a note.  I walked toward the train, stopped at the local mosque, prayed in the male section for the morning prayer.

things drop, something i have to pay attention to.

I reach chicago, the bus doesn’t leave til later in the day - I go to my old school one last time (UIC); i stop at a starbucks, the wall has a painting, speak softly
people will listen

take your time
the world is waiting

(3/31)

I went to the internet user experience conference in michigan - that was a good excuse for me to leave - i met a lot of great people and spent 1 night studying in the wayne state library - I head for new york.

I saw this documentary about this rapper guy from chicago, when he did not have a place to stay he’d just ride the trains all night… I did the same for the 1st 2 nights - just walking around with 2 heavy bags, not really sleeping, but not really sleepy.

I saw a lot of people, had a lot of experiences and learned a lot of things.

New York life is hard; it felt like a warzone being at that level - i had money but couldn’t find a place - I was in defense mode making sure i wont get hurt…i wanted to leave sunday… something told me to stay and not be such a wimp…

I was thinking i could get a membership at a gym so i can use a locker and the bathroom and then ride the trains or find this shelter to stay (but pay anyway)… Sunday morning i end up in front of a dunkin donuts, right before it opens, and there i meet someone as part of this experience.

He hears my story and is in disbelief thinking i must be crazy (for walking around) but then saying that he wished he was a little like that.  I start feeling bad, so i use my atm to get 20 bucks so i can use a taxi for now.  I was intending to use the 20 bucks so i can find a place with free wi-fi for my eee pc labtop or finding that gym i liked.

Those 1st 2 days nothing worked right and i even went to new jersey by rutgers university - did my laundry there; ate at a hispanic mom-pop shop; saw the people but then left…

But then Christian (Chris) offered me coffee (i didnt want to accept, he said i was too proud, so i accepted eventually) and said there is a house  in queens that is much cheaper.  He asked if i was part of some mafia or if i might be some killer - I said no.

The house feels like something from a reality show - there’s a 70 something father who has 2 cancers, his kids and grandkids come over sometimes.  There’s a 25 yr old girl with her son, and 2 artists that always have people over and are always doing artsy things.

All i did was walk around, came upon a hindu temple - i want to learn hindi … the guru makes it easy to understand… it was 9 nights last week… when he wasn’t there, the magic was gone - i started to appreciate his presence… he explains things clearly…

I was thinking of these religions… it seems like they have many gods… but i see stories and representations of godly characteristics… and using thoughts and energies to achieve those characteristics or make your energies align with higher energies…

From the arabic quran there are 99 names of ‘God’ - one can say there are 99 gods…  but it’s something where you focus on one attribute to allow that energy flow to come into your life.

I don’t know what God is… I don’t feel right specifying this power to one label or box… maybe it is something more… maybe the whole network around us and the power within us can be the source…

There was a story about a lady that wanted her child to have the spirit of the God  (if i remember right - Vishnu?)… the story seemed similar to Mary and Jesus… and there was a special day (monday) about how this being is coming back… kind of like how people think Jesus will come back (but i believe he was always back - he was always alive)…

The first day i came here to the house i had marijuana and ecstasy -

The 20 dollars i intended for a taxi…. was used for the ecstasy…. I was intending one reality to be created… but some how another reality arose due to the intentions/needs of the people involved…

the marijuana does nothing for me - maybe made me more talkative… the other drug did have a different feel - but i had better feelings from other experiences….

Will (the son) said that without drugs he would not be able to handle life or something… that was one of the first times i met him… i see so much suffering and need for healing in new york… it’s been 2 weeks and the friends i made have also improved in some way… while i was here some parts of the house got cleaned up, and it’s noticeable that Jim is getting better from his cancer…

I told chris about energies and letting things go to heal… so many times i wanted to leave this situation that i somehow got into… but somehow i stayed… i can never go back to chicago… even when Muhammad was driven out of mecca, he never came back until he created some kind of abundance for people to accept him…

I don’t feel there is any more growth for me there… so i was forced to leave… This place felt like a school… like some sort of dynamic, interactive virtual school but with our bodies… I hated this school, but understood i had to accept it…. My intentions were to find a way to create abundance… And the other people here created intentions… it was like we were attracted to each other…

I see the talents of these people… and maybe some sort of team will be formed… on my way here i met 3 people.

A jesus lover handed me something while i was looking at the news report on the anniversary of the passing of MLK (at bus stop).

I speak to him and he says that he sees that i will glorify jesus with my work.

A hispanic guy from texas looking for a better life said that he could see me teaching and showing people how to make millions of dollars after i told him about social media, networking, globalization and open-communication.

I meet this 3rd guy (4/4) on our way to New York, he is a baby boomer, he was studying to be a rabbi in a past life - but did not like the strict rules…

he tells me about how you can access any library on the net like harvard, etc…. he sends me this love letter:

Darling Eternal Sweetheart, Iram Sana,

I arrived at McAllen Texas on April 7. You look very very Beautiful and very very Lovely and very very Noble. And I do feel very very deep love and very very deep respect for you. I was an Elementary School Teacher in New York City. Now, I’m presently living and studying medicine in Mexico. I plan to work as a Family Physician in the U.S.A. in the future. Many many tender hugs and many many tender kisses to you the Eternal Miss Universe of my dreams. Avi. (april 12th)

I go to the hindu temple… i want to learn… but i don’t like rules … But to learn i have to call my self that way… so that i can mentally be open to accept and learn things…

It’s hard to be open to things when you are reluctant to believe in certain ideas… so i when i go there, i tell myself i am hindu… so i can learn…

I bought shoes cuz my feet hurt from walking… on sunday i go to a catholic church … and see a bunch of war hero grave site…. I was walking through that landscape…

And was thinking how each tombstone is just a representation… And names are what divide us… language is what divides us…

I was taught that humans learned language… and angels did not know this (quran)…. This language - to create names for things, create stories, create labels - have created division…

But when the language is stripped away - the experience is all the same… everything really is energy and focusing energy to a certain direction or source and communicating energies…

I begin to understand that language really is a barrier… even within 1 language… if there are different stories… that can create division…

But if it’s understood… that the experience is the same… regardless of language or story… then that can build bridges…

I go to this church… it’s kind of like in the borat movie… where everyone is excited and praising Jesus and standing/shaking… and 2 ladies use that energy to communicate with jesus and higher energy levels to help me… i start to cry…

At the end of the service… a hispanic guy, Jesus but pronounced Hay-soos, goes up to the microphone and says that he got a message from the holy spirit that someone has a secret and will not reach a higher level until that secret is revealed…

I start thinkin what if i have to tell everything to my parents?  Later i learn my family still wont handle it… they may create energies to stop this flow…

This man says that the holy spirit informed him… When I get info i say a thought came to me (i don’t know where the thought is from)… the experience is exactly the same - yet the language is different…

Sometime last week i find a mosque - I go in, and they kick me out when they see me…. I say people are suffering, doing drugs/alcohol… is this building for you or for Allah?

It may have been a misunderstanding, because some equipment was stolen earlier.

Mostly males go to that mosque… but if the doors were open to everyone and people could learn from this other way… it would be more beneficial and might be a requirement to ensure our survival…

By wednesday… I prayed with the males for the morning prayer… I just got up and something/one told me to go…

By friday… i prayed the special friday prayer alongside males… I was right next to a young boy and little girl… it just happened… I’d go in, just sit around as if i was doin nothing… i found a book on hassan al banna (islamic movement hero)… and started reading it… when everyone gets up to pray… i just sit there…. they are looking at me… the prayer starts… then i get up in that last moment… and get out quickly…

I feel lucky… i never force anything to happen… it is just allowed to happen….

I left the book there… so when they see that name and what that man did… at least they can see that i am trying to do something similar…

I go with my shoes on hand to the park… and see kids playing….

Maybe if everything gets equalized… everyone will act like those kids… just meshing and mixing with each other and learning together…

That same wednesday… i go for a walk… i start speeding up for some reason… then i start running…. i felt like i was a machine… losing feeling for people… not as distracted by images/sites as usual…but highly focused… I was imagining what if we develop like that one day… where we are so focused that we don’t even have to go to the bathroom or get distracted by everything around us…

i read about heaven where no one creates waste and where no one gets intoxicated by drugs or alcohol (their bodies and minds are evolved)…

I reach to this park… this black teenaged girl invites me to play tag… i say sure… she is it, so she tries to chase me, the teenaged boy and this younger boy…  eventually the boy falls from the play-gym  (3-4 feet above ground) to the  ground…

My first reaction was ‘oh shit!’

Then i go up to him and place my hands on his head trying to create thoughts (or prayers) to heal him… I ask him for his name, he doesn’t answer… I ask again… his friend answers:

Her name is Mike… then i realize… it’s a girl…

She repeatedly says HER name is Mike… but the girl never admitted it to me…

Then I’m shocked… I sit in the bench as the girl kisses Mike’s head…

What kind of culture have we created? i think… where the roles of girls are so limited that they have to become guys?  The rules in place create the enslavement and tension that can lead to any kind of behavior to have some freedom…  The behavior isn’t wrong… it’s the mindsets that created the inferior culture that led to that behavior as a byproduct…

and the girl who was kissing mike… she must have been the best one to understand her pain and was there just to give love….

But she kept on saying HER name is mike…. as if she wanted me to know the truth… yet mike was too ashamed after i touched her head to say that truth…

Then I leave… I’ve seen a lot of same-gender affection while i was here… girls embracing girls for a long duration or talking and touching each others faces with their hands…

even on my last day in chicago… this guy was asking me to donate for this fund for gay rights…

These people always come in front of me… as if i’m supposed to try to understand something….

personally i think that in heaven you can do whatever you like… so i don’t feel right to say anything is wrong… it’s more about priorities and focusing on the most crucial problem first… And as people get elevated or mindsets change… people might behave differently also….

Chris asked me why this whole saving the world and creating better realities is always on my mind… and I said… I don’t feel right wasting even one second if it means someone else is suffering…

I feel like people should do what they want… but there is a necessity for people to heal in certain ways, also… And something that is necessary should be worked on with greater priority than something just for self…

I told Chris that I do not believe in marriage or roles of girlfriend or boyfriend.  I just believe in experiences.  Each experience carries you to a new experience and new development.

I do not even believe in roles of father, mother, brother or sister.  I see those roles also create enslavement if one forgets of the higher roles to reach a destiny that can benefit humanity.

I was realizing I’m glad that i had few friends and came from a dysfunctional family… that way it is easier for me to detach… cuz there was nothing that i was really attached to in the first place…

I tell people, if they ask, that my parents are muslim and I am just a seeker.  Plus, I don’t feel like calling myself by any name when what i do is not understandable.

I do it for the experience and to create the best story.

We live by stories.  If I can create the best story, based on my circumstances, that will help someone else create an even better story.

If everyone did that… we might have a better reality(ies).

I still think sometimes to leave… and fear that there will be a time that maybe people will find out who i am and might not like something and then create those negative-head-burning energies… that will drive me away…

But i feel like i am learning and this virtual reality school (while in my body) is preparing me for some higher development.

Thursday night, i go to the hindu temple to learn hindi, i come in right when they have this prayer thing (i learned earlier you are not supposed to get up during pooja - maybe because it interferes/messes up with the collective intention created and people lose focus)…

they gave the kids flower petals, there was a fire in the center… we threw the petals … but it went on the fire and the fire died out…. the pandit said we were not supposed to do throw it on the fire but around it… i started laughing (i was crying while they were singing - i didn’t understand the words - but just experiencing… how i came right when they started their intentions… everyone has a plan… yet somehow i just show up at the right times… maybe it’s not a plan… maybe it’s just stepping into worlds at specific moments to learn something…. for _____?)

So i started laughing… they give free food too for the students…

I get some extra food - i really don’t want it… even carrying the food feels like a burden… i just want to relinquish it to someone else… i walk by another islamic dawah (eduational) center and then a small, storefront church…

they have a saying with Sana… i learned Sana meant healing… i go in and they are singing in spanish and playing some hispanic instruments… there’s only a handful of people…

I play one of the instruments… a lady hands me a paper on jesus… how a connection with him can keep you elevated…. and that that is the only connection for elevation….

i think there has to be more than one connection… but maybe that particular connection is one of the better ones… or maybe we should evolve in such a way where all of our connections have equal power…

I offer the food i got from the hindu temple… something drops… (signal to pay attention)… It was the lady and some kids in the back of the room while the adults were listening to a sermon…. she acts like she doesn’t need it but i sense like they need it… I try to make it look like i was sharing and not donating any food… so i have a little bit and eat it…

I walk out… and think again of all these languages and stories and buildings… it’s all the same experience… the same power… the same energy… it all is energy if you really break it down… purer thoughts, collectively created, create more powerful energy…

These stories divided us… yet the people all suffer the same… the stories give some kind of hope so people won’t go crazy…

People are struggling but no one wants to admit or show it… People are in desperation some times, yet they will not ask for help… they have their dignity and pride….

The language and buildings and stories block people from reaching out to other people… friendships never happen…. people don’t learn from the good of others…. language really is a barrier… but the experiences are the same…

I cry sometimes then a funny experience comes to mind right away… like the experience of me throwing petals to stop the fire… i started laughing because it was something that we weren’t supposed to do…

Then i was thinking…. about my brother…when he sees one of us sad or angry he does the same… he right away comes up with a funny joke…. so the focus stays on something positive…

maybe whatever was present… understood… and sent a thought to make me laugh…. i was focused on something negative and all of a sudden out of nowhere i remember something funny that changes my focus… (without creating the intention)…

Friday before i go to that congregational collective thought creation…. this spiritual psychic stops me… she had the gift since she was 3… she’s the gift in her son also…

She said i had low self esteem and was hurt… she told me to stop crying… i told her people don’t accept me…. she says she notices that i like girls… i said yes i love girls and guys… like jesus…. i keep thinking is this being bisexual or is this something else?… where as you develop form doesn’t matter… the outer is temporary… and formless is more visible and more important…. sometimes i remind my self… about the formless so i can forget about the form…

She told me to light a candle and gave me bath salts representing love and peace… she said that the negative of others can get into your aura and you can lose faith… she says i smile but have pain… she’s my heart was broken or someone hurt me… she asked who hurt me… i said i didn’t know… maybe i didn’t realize it that far… or maybe she (Crystal) doesn’t realize it that far…

She said she was going to the church for me for 9 days/nights to find out what i wrong… each day or night to represent the 9 months in the womb.

I told her i can just tell her what happened… she said she wanted to find out for herself to see what is revealed to her…

I asked her how she does it… she says just pray… prayer is important (creating a style of thought)… I asked if she will communicate with jesus to gain some of his insights (kind of like how we communicate with cell phones/email)… she said that is part of the prayer…

I told Chris my whole story up to the point about me thinking i was getting married and jerusalem…

I even said there is a way to send love like ecstasy but better… he doesn’t believe it…  he thinks i’m crazy a bit, and sometimes scared… he asked me if i would stab him or something…. i said no, my only intention is to create abundance… but he’s says i’m too smart to care about those people that ostracized me….

There are 2 copies of the scarlet letter here… a book about a lady that goes against norms in a relationship and she is ostracized and labeled… sometimes I worry that that may also happen to me if people get the facts but do not understand the intentions or the story that i am trying to create that can benefit the most people (in mainstream)….

My only main intention now is to figure out how to create abundance.  I have certain skills and i see a team potentially in place.

You are Responsible

I read Morse’s book on NDE’s - there are some cases where people who lost limbs were able to regenerate them - i think it was australia and maybe some other places (when it was kept open and not bandaged)…

I saw my dad young, a full head of hair and healthy; he was around my age but a little older (around his 30s). It was when I saw the dream/vision where there was this huge gathering at this place (last ramadan around october).

I read about this lady who reversed stroke and re-learned how to walk just with visualization (with the help of a virtual reality game) - she just saw herself healthy and walking - and some how her thinking changed.  She started believing in her power to heal herself.

I’d like to see a place where the folk take off their oxygen masks and cast their canes to the side and get up from their wheelchairs and maybe even re-grow their limbs.

But there needs to be some responsibility for our own elevation (health, situation, etc.).

Last week my dad was blaming others for his health.

This week he is taking more responsibility for his health.

We get sick. We learn things while sick.  Our mindsets get elevated.  We reach a greater plane of understanding.  Then after this, we get cured.

Sickness is a way to get to elevation.

I read stories that when people overcame a grudge or forgave or got over some pain, they cured themselves from cancer and other diseases.  Some even visualized sending light to those that hurt them the most (from a near-death experience).  And when they felt the light come back to them, they felt their bodies changing (one person’s cancer went away).

They say emotions take part in holding us down (depression, disease, low levels of existence) - emofree.com.

I can’t sleep well at night.

I lost more weight.

I don’t eat much.  I don’t have time to cook even a good meal for myself - because writing about flow and studying takes time.

We got a blender, I make juice for my dad (i hear veggie/fruit juice diets can reverse a lot of diseases) - the pulp left over I mix it with some honey and whatever we have (nuts, some stuff my mom made, etc) and then i ate that yesterday.

I have a space in our basement.  I stay there most times.  There is no sunlight there (no windows).

I felt like a loser before.  Everyone else has jobs and all i do is sit at home and write.

Then i read about others who do the same.  They just look at books for like a year or so and then write a paper on it (academics who get fellowships).

So i didn’t feel so bad.

Then i read about khalil gibran.  After most of family died, his sister sewed for a living to sustain her self and him.   He didn’t do any work.  But his sister and this teacher who loved him supported and encouraged him.  They believed his work was so important they encouraged him to focus on his art and writing.

And he even fell in love with the teacher (they made a book on their love letters), but she was much older - so she just encouraged and even paid for him to study in europe to develop further.

No one bought his books/works when he was alive - it was only about 50 years after his death that he became a best-seller (if i remember right).

There is so much to do that I really don’t help around with my family (unless extremely necessary).  Is that selfish?  it depends how you look at it.

I tell them that they have to do it themselves and they do, we always were so busy that everyone became independent and self-reliant.

None of us even like the same foods, that’s why we usually make our own food.  But I don’t cook or if i do it’s something quick because i have to focus and concentrate.

I also try to stay away from my parents, from their negative thoughts and energies… cuz i know they are disappointed in me sometimes (cuz it seems to them i’m no help) - but i do help when i can, but only if extremely needed and it’s the quickest thing to do with the maximum benefit…

If negative thoughts are created from some thing - it can be sustained if that thing is still there (to remind you)… so i try to stay away when i sense this…

that’s why i didn’t go out much - because i want to stay away from negative energies - so i can cure myself and concentrate on what i have to do…

There is more growth when you are away from negative energies..

Is it worth it?

I don’t know.

But being this focused where i can’t really take care of myself or others can create culture where no one can really take care of others (if others did this).

We can’t go forward if our family members/friends are sick cuz we’ll be using our resources just to help them survive.

That’s how I can see that the time where one person will be so worried about his work/fate that he/she will not have the time or resources to worry or consider the fate of others (even their loved ones) is already here.

They say this is the day of judgement where no one will care for another.

This is just the necessity as more people get uplifted and understand the important things.

It is something that is inevitable after people reach states of health.

And you need a state of health to even succeed in this reality.  If everyone is struggling like this, then there is no possible way that they can also care for others.  Those others are actually creating a burden and will hold us back at this level.

The only way out of this level is if we collectively work to take charge of our health for our future.

The more we worry and struggle over health - the less our focus on progress.

They say if you don’t use some muscles or stop using your brain - you get atrophy or lose functioning… over time, of course, you will end up in a very needy state.

I don’t want to see a reality like that for anyone.

I saw my dad in his 30s - they say there will be a time when people will be at their peaks (heaven).

I don’t think we are supposed to wait for Jesus to come down to us.

I think we are supposed to develop so we can go up to Jesus in the world of elevated experiences.

If you have others doing your work for you, you prevent them from developing to reach a better reality and you also destroy your own health overtime (lose your own functionality).

That’s why self-reliance will be a requirement.

Things will move so fast, people will be required to focus on what powers they have out of a necessity, and with that they will have less time to care for others around them.  That means to survive, each one of us will have to know how to take care and sustain ourselves.

That is the harsh reality.

Jesus is not coming down to save us.  We have to save ourselves and come up to Jesus.

You Have a Higher

Obama’s Story - Video - Message of Unity

(maybe the most important speech for this moment)

Steve Jobs at Stanford - 3 Stories on heart, death, and your future

Good Friday, Happy Purim, Eid...

March 20, 21 2008 - a unique set of dates for interfaith experience

Some of the ideas that are changing the world:

Re-Judaizing Jesus

TheRoot.com

A New Earth- 10 week Web Experience anytime (ch 1, 2, 3)

Muhammad slideshow introduction

Obama brought up all the hidden frustrations of american people into a more public platform when he spoke a few days back. This is good, we’re talking about our problems and allowing each other to recognize the pain we spread.

Because of dates and calendars and the timing and the change in earth’s nature there are so many celebrations right now. One because of a man who walked toward death to never really die. Another on a birth of a man who came to this level just to create peace. Another about a group of people who escaped negative energies to live better lives.

And others because spring brings new life, rebirth and resurrection.

I never knew what easter was before, now I do, and I would celebrate this. If I knew about all that people loved - these stories, I would recognize those stories and join in that experience.

We talk about race and interfaith relationships and global interactions.

But talking does nothing. We will only change when we experience what we believe we should be experiencing. That means inter-faith & inter-racial relations and partnerships and love.

There’s no point in saying we believe in diversity when the people we work with, hang out with and the worlds we go into are only filled with those who carry our own skin color or our own selective histories or our own school of thoughts.

There’s no point in loving elevated beings like Jesus or Muhammad or others when we don’t even create the experiences in our own lives that show we mean what we say.

Why have faith in love that we don’t want to create ourselves?

Anne Rice re-imagines Jesus - former atheist with ‘gay’ son (using current understanding)… this trilogy was created by re-examining the gospels over and over, from studying scholarly research, and trying to imagine Jesus’ experiences and fuse those expressions into a story form.

Jesus and Paul both came from one school of thought… yet the reforms they worked on created another school of thought.

If Jesus and Paul could communicate with us at this moment, I think they would tell us that their work was just to evolve and enhance the previous work.

The previous school of thought was selective history and selective success for only a selective people.

Jesus and Paul had to come from within that school of thought to transform it from the inside so the message of peace can be accessible for all beings and not just a selective group of people.

The best change is the change within.

People worry about terrorism, the best way to change is for muslims (or those associated with radical ideas) to transform culture from within.

But is Jesus a Jew? Is Paul a Jew?

Abraham was neither a Jew nor a Nazarene.

He had a higher role that comes before any other role.

Muhammad was not a father (even though some kids were connected to him)… he had a higher role beyond these temporary roles.

Jesus was human at one time, Muhammad was human one time.

If elevated beings can live human lives, than human lives can also become elevated.

Flow can go in any direction; Energy can be transferred in any way and in any form.

Anyone can achieve god-like powers.

If we reject our potential we will stay in this level longer.

There was a reason Jesus and Muhammad were made human - so that one day we can realize that everything that elevated beings can do, we can also do… just with the powers inside of us.

http://www.newlifechicago.org/

Right now we create days to create thoughts.  All these stories lined up this week so all these thoughts can be shared at the same moment.

If a lot of people are having the same thoughts at the same time… that collective energy can transform reality… we don’t need a calendar to decide when to create a thought…

we can create collective thoughts anytime.

For change, you will have to switch direction away from the old mindsets toward a new reality.

Even Abraham switched direction from his own Father.

And if they are told: “Follow what God has sent down,” they say: “No, we will follow what we found our fathers doing!” What if their fathers did not understand anything and were not guided? [2:170]

And if they are told: “Come to what God has sent down, and to the messenger;” they say: “We are content with what we found our fathers doing.” What if their fathers did not know anything nor were guided? [ 5 :104]

And Abraham said to his father, Azar: “Will you take idols as gods? I see you and your people clearly misguided.” [ 6 : 74]

There is no blame on the prophet in doing anything that God has decreed upon him. Such was God’s way with the people of old. And God’s command is a determined duty.

Those who deliver God’s messages, and reverence Him, and they do not reverence anyone but God. God suffices as a Reckoner.

Mohammed was not the father of any of your men, but he is the messenger of God and the seal of the prophets. And God is fully aware of all things. [ 33 : 38-40]

“O people of the Scripture, why do you debate us regarding Abraham when the Torah and the Injeel were not sent down except after him? Do you not understand?”

Here you have debated in what you knew; so why then do you debate in what you do not know? God knows while you do not know.

Abraham was neither a Jew nor a Nazarene, but he was a monotheist who submitted; he was not of those who set up partners.

The most legitimate people to Abraham are those who followed him; and this prophet, and those who believed; and God is the supporter of the believers. [ 3 : 65-68]

“Or do you say that Abraham and Ishmael and Isaac and Jacob and the Patriarchs were all Jewish or Nazarene?” Say: “Are you more knowledgeable or is God?” Who is more wicked than one who conceals a testimony with him from God? God is not unaware of what you do.

That was a nation that passed away, to them is what they earned and to you is what you have earned; you will not be asked about what they did. [ 2 : 141-142]

Created Reality is not Ultimate Reality

The Cranberries Song - Just My Imagination

 Imagination (2007) movie - from alluc.org - 2 brothers (one is animator for spongebob square pants) worked 3 years on this on

Gwen Stefani - Cool Song

Good Charlotte Song - Dance Floor Anthem
The Design of Imagination video

From desteni.co.za Beings with Known Earth History:

The Digitalized Personification Suits of Personality (Part One) by Heath Ledger (jan 29 2008)

Why I would not want to be God (Part One) by Heath Ledger  (feb 7 2008)

Sunette - Stop and Discover Yourself

Free Educational Software video

The Accidental husband - bedroommedia.com

part 1 of 3 http://bedroommedia.com/watch.php?vid=11186&part=57816

part 2 of 3

http://bedroommedia.com/watch.php?vid=11186&part=57817

part 3 of 3

http://bedroommedia.com/watch.php?vid=11186&part=57818

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I said ones thoughts create reality.  If you listen to the kid from desteni productions he talks about the mind - how we use our minds to create illusions that become our reality.  And there is truth to that reality because it enslaves us and becomes a part of us.

He does not take into account visions shared or introduced/encouraged by higher-level beings or co-created - but he has a good point.  And the articles above from heath and sunette explain it further.

This is stuff i’m still not understanding completely.  I only have my own experiences to explain whatever I know.  Basically it says that we are actors and we create this script and become directors of that script.  Our room is the world we create, our eyes are our windows, our clothes are our personalities that we go into to fit into this created reality.

With shared visions we can create worlds that can transform world events.  We were able to create a reality that there were WMDs in iraq and use that reality to take certain actions.

The facts stay the same, but we can always package them in ways to create any reality we desire.

I don’t think there is anything wrong in creating worlds - I have seen those in higher levels creating worlds - that was how i learned… it was like a virtual reality game… somethings can never be understood or explained fully unless you experience it and are immersed in a world… B4 i thought these virtual reality games were pointless… but I learned so much within seconds everytime… I see how they can be put to good use… as people get developed, there will be more demand for learning…

With the worlds we can create, people can become a Phd in numerous fields within a couple years or days or hours… It’s quicker learning when it is interactive like that… that’s why i feel the internet world is so important to create progress at the fast pace that is needed for our survival…

Yeah language is important, but maybe the language of coding might be the new requirement or even just trying to establish a greater internet presence…

Right now we surround the internet, but there will be a time (as we develop) when the internet world will surround us… just as we surround the hidden reality… but there will be a time (when we understand) when we will see that the hidden reality surrounds us…

The article by sunette is about STOP thinking and creating realities… something about it keeps us in an illusion due to our expectations…

There are some groups that will never change their mindsets until they see some Messiah come or someone who is in a king-like position from an Abrahamic lineage.  That was the reality that was created just as we create other realities (like WMDs in iraq)…

Muhammad made predictions that a guide will come and something will happen in rome and there will be an understanding of jesus…

but most of these predictions are not even part of the Quran (the created text attributed to a direct contact from another force)… Maybe it was some other kind of insights (the kind we all get) but that is always changing the reality… depending on the state of the collective vision…

I said I saw myself in Jerusalem… why did i assume that?  I created a reality based on information, but my thoughts altered the truth and my reality  enslaved those that believed in it…

All I really saw was myself speaking to a large, large group of people, and people listening… there was no clear indication of what that location(s) was…

It’s just like dreams… most of my dreams are based in a school setting… maybe cuz most of my memories are in that scenario… was I really in a school?  Or do certain thoughts form certain images to help you understand certain things?

And when i saw heath, he was sitting in a park bench in a park-like setting… was that really a park?  Or just a scene created from a past memory to help me understand some information coming to me?

I also so his former fiance, all his family and friends, even his daughter… were they really there or was it just their thoughts that tapped into the network that created images?

It’s just like in dreams… you have a dream with your sister or friend or classmate… you wake up and tell them hey, you were in my dream… but they don’t remember being in that world… but if you pay attention to that person’s (and yours) emotions, character, behavior and action in the dream… you can make a better guess as to what the person’s real intentions/motivations are (if they want to help you or hurt you)…

you can use that info in your future interactions with that person…

I don’t know what all this is… all i know is that there is a network… thoughts create images that help you understand things even if you are the only one seeing those images within worlds based on what you already know (they exist yet they don’t exist)… and that energy can be transferred (communication within the network)…

And i do know, from experience, that not all imagination is yours alone… there are others involved that collaborate with the creation of those images and worlds and sort of encourage or motivate you to move certain directions…

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I had a similar vision around ramadan last year… i was in some huge gathering… real huge… like some sort of pilgrimage… but where?  I don’t know… maybe it’s not a place at all, but holds some kind of truth…

I turned my heart toward jerusalem less than a year ago… because of my thoughts and the realities in place I misinterpreted what was happening to me…

It was only recently that I understood that things happened for maybe a different reason than what I initially assumed.

I still had experiences, still events happened and I made connections to those events to create certain conclusions… and when my own thoughts became involved I used those events to create my own personal reality… and any reality you create has truth in it… it shapes your life forever (even if it turns out wrong)…

I became sick and then, at the same time, in love - i started creating a reality… and events did happen from outside of me… i even saw and felt an infant child’s hand… i assumed somehow that kid was connected to me, it felt so real (it was saturday, the day before last easter)….

Somehow I assumed I was supposed to get married… and their was some kind of encouragement that led me to learn other things… I don’t know why this had to happen…

But maybe I was supposed to do all the wrong things to understand the right ways to share a story… we only learn with stories…

But for that moment in time, I needed that reality to survive… too much info was given to me, i felt like i was going crazy, no one wanted to associate with me… I had to create that reality to stay alive…

If I did not get that love that i needed or feel that I might have a future with someone, I would have hurt myself (or maybe others)… that was a sensitive, vulnerable time… I had to believe certain things to just hold on a little longer…

There are people who have similar passions for change, but without love they do crazy things like kill people… that reality i created saved me from doing something irrational (even though at times I still did not feel so good)…

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But because of that reality I created, I see now that it enslaves me and others… It even enslaved the person i had feelings for…

We have so much realities that we create, that prevent us from making the changes we need based on selective histories and selective beliefs…

I switched direction… I said it was rome, but was it really rome?!  I don’t know, just certain events happened right after (i go online and there is this news article about the pope’s summit with muslims) and I still believed in the reality created by Muhammad - that something will happen in rome…

so I made the conclusion that maybe this new direction is rome…

I said bush might be important… that’s cuz certain events happened - I kept on seeing his name everywhere on a few occasions and i got some information (books/videos) that one can make connections and come up with a particular conclusion… All these events happened in a particular, gradual order… after learning one thing, I’d learn another thing that related to the previous thing…

Bush being the son of mary would seem like the perfect solution… because it would satisfy the reality of those groups that will only change mindsets when a king from an abrahamic lineage is in place…

With my thoughts I made conclusions that altered the lives of many people… Yes, I got information and certain events happened… I even saw more kids on 3 other occasions… so somehow i believe something good will happen…

But maybe visions are given and we are just supposed to take them in openly without being quick to analyze… maybe there are truths in all of our experiences… but we just have to let the flow go smoothly without our incorrect interference…

I altered this guys life just by the reality i created… maybe by the time we reach different levels… what i understood then turns out to be something totally different…

That was the mistake I made by putting my thoughts and perceptions on the information i got… what do these experiences really mean?

Maybe it’s not for us to decide just yet… maybe we are just supposed to take it in and move forward and see what happens… maybe everything i saw had some truth to it, but not the truth that i can understand right now…

that’s cuz the fact will always stay the same… we haven’t reached the ultimate reality yet… so we shoudn’t be finalizing any reality and setting it into stone…

We limit ourselves with the realities we create… even when we know the collective vision is still a work in progress…

I imprisoned myself and others with my created reality… yes, it was good for me then (cuz I needed it to survive)… but right now, it’s stopping growth… the reality i created does not bring freedom… because holding those beliefs is enslavement…

I feel like I have much to study and experience.  I still get in contact with heath (from dreams, etc) and he says that I don’t even know the full story yet… there is still more… i see him busy doing something, but I don’t know what… he saw my clothes and gave me better ones, I’ve never seen clothes like those…

But that was in a different world that I don’t even understand yet…

“Some people think it’s holding on that makes one strong.  Sometimes it’s letting go.”

-Sylvia Robinson

Your Own Personal Reality = Reality

I can only talk about transcending knowledge with the experiences I have.  I got nothing else to prove these ideas, but info is out there for those who want to find it.

Heaven does not exist, but it still does exist - like dreams, virtual reality games, the thoughts we create that create our reality in ways we want, the internet, etc.

I said if you have pure thoughts, stripped from ego or pride or selfishness, etc… then you can create the reality quicker because of how you use the network.

The network is already there, just as the internet is there… but with the right mindsets you can create a different experience(s)… HOW you use it changes.

Different Thoughts –> Different Worlds

But it’s on the same network.

I said I was sick and when you are close to death, in so much pain, the level of thinking changes.  There is no more reason or rationality; you see the true reality - your weakness.  You don’t care for pride anymore or history or grudges or past lifetimes or your status/reputation.  You stay in the moment and thoughts you create are purer and thus create changes in this world (and others) quicker.

Like pro-athletes or visionaries, you have to first visualize what you desire or want in the purest state of mind (without ego, jealousy, hate, etc).

You have to experience it first before you experience it again, repeatedly in different ways and from different angles.

They did studies on this… researchers recorded brain waves and muscle twitches for athletes who visualized their own motions on a playing world they created…versus physically doing those motions in this earthly, non-internet world.  No matter what world they were in, the physiological changes were the same… The same parts of the brain were activated and the same muscles were responding in the same ways.

That is how the athletes prepared - they practiced on having the same mindset, entered the same created world, they experienced the motions as if they actually were doing those motions.  That preparation led to a higher level of success.

It does not matter what world you need to go into to create a reality.  You can create as many realities and worlds that you desire and it will still transform you.

You already do this…this is the kind of network that can get wars started, just by thoughts and sharing visions.  The facts are the same for everyone, but if you just package them a certain way, then you can create any reality you want.  Then you can get others to also experience that reality, just by shared thoughts and visions.

The facts stay the same.  The network stays the same.  But we choose the reality we want and get the results we want (or intend).

We already do this… so the same network that is used to create conflict and confrontation can also be used to promote peace and reconciliation and maybe even heaven.

We have that freedom to create any reality(ies) we desire and if this is done in a collective manner - all our actions can be reversed within seconds or altered to create a better reality(ies).

I said I was sick; and before that some of my classmates created a reality for me on their terms.

I went out for sushi with friends, near the end of the previous semester.  And with the negative energies in place (negative thoughts), a reality was created that people started believing: that i actually went out dancing.

The facts are the same, but the reality was changed by a collective effort; and people actually made future actions/thoughts based on this created reality.

But we can always reverse this, if we understand HOW to use the network with the right mindsets, shared.

Anyway, I get sick at the same time the facts come out, so people feel sorry for me (classmates) for the reality that was created.

If I wasn’t sick, someone would never have looked at me the way they looked at me.  And then I would never have developed feelings for that person.

If I was healthy, that other reality would continue, and I would never be where i am today.  Somehow I got sick (from dad), and a different reality was forced to come into creation.

That is the power of others.  Others can participate to always change the collective vision(s). Anyone can get involved and access this network to create thoughts that create energies.

I remember that moment, I was in neuroanatomy lab, he looked at me and i was coughing like crazy & upset at the same time.  Then I was amazed, no guy ever looked at me that way, ever.

And no guy ever would if those events never happened.  And from that and my weakness (sick) i fell in love.

We hear stories that we should visit the sick cuz 1000s of angels are with them and any thought you create will come true.

When we think about it, the reason others are attracted to the sick one (to help and encourage) is because of his/her thoughts.  The right thoughts and visions attract the right powers.  So when you are sick and in love you start using the network in different ways.

The experience is like sex, or anything really, you get better with more practice.

That’s how i slowly learned that you can transfer energy to people; you can even change another person’s or being’s mood –> they can then change their actions or thoughts; you can even have experiences with people from other times and spaces (or within the same time but different location) cuz the network is the same.

It only started because I had longing and desire.  And when you are in love or like someone, you start thinking about that love and imagining or creating a reality in your mind, your own personal reality.

And if you are sick you will do it with more force, so much more force that another can feel your visions or fantasies.

Overtime, people might share visions/experiences to more people (without our created devices).  But we need to develop how we use the network to learn more about this hidden reality.

As i became more involved with the network, i understood there can be a day where a being can have an experience with anyone(s) they desired, anytime and anyplace in any world or simultaneously within more than one world or locations.

We already do this, but not at this higher level (for majority).

This info is major.  This is the kind of insights, if people knew, the world can never be the same, ever.  It’ll just move forward with such a force, you can never resist it or even come close to stopping this growth.

This is the kind of info where beings begin to understand a collective history and collective movements.

When I was younger, I heard that there will be a world where beings can have experiences with multiple partners as personal or as intimate as they desire. And that the other partners or beings involved will never have to know about the other worlds or experiences you encounter (if you don’t share your experiences).

I was always confused: You can have as many partners you want, yet no one knows about this not even your partners?!  This sounds so impossible.  But it is already here, the network is already in place.  It’s just learning HOW to use the network with the purest thoughts and emotions.

After this past year, I finally understood how this was possible, by my own experiences.  I was afraid to try it, because in our current mindsets this is taboo.  but I understood that this is permissible and inevitable.   When more beings learn this, you can never stop them - with the kind of freedom it will create.

People will be like Jesus - sending love and experiences to transform anyone they desire from any time, space or location, even during the same time.  We can have these connections even if people or beings are in different locations.

This info is profound.  Do you know what this means?

Love for all, anyone.  No one will have ownership of anyone - you wont own your girlfriend or boyfriend or spouse or friend.  There will be heavenly freedom.

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That’s why i can’t say that those who are confused of their sexuality are wrong or that it is wrong to be gay or bisexual.  I think there is some greater feeling to those feelings, something beyond our current understanding.  Maybe those people who can have love regardless of gender or being, etc… maybe they are more developed like Jesus.

Jesus loved everyone, but we don’t call him gay or bisexual or multisexual.  He even still transforms people and beings with the contacts he makes.

I think, as more get involved with the better ways of using the network, then people will be more like Jesus and those more advanced than us.

Osho says there is a form of ecstacy beyond the sexual.  There are mystics and saints that reach levels of enlightenment that they say is beyond sex.  I was reading his writings, he says there is a level where you can make love to the sun just by looking at it, to the trees and so on.

Just by looking at nature you feel an ecstacy that is beyond sexual.  Most of us are not even close to that level, some of us are and then incorrectly labeled by inferior definitions.

This is something about connections and energies and feeling the vibrations around us.  This is something beyond our current, common knowledge.  I don’t know what it is yet, I’m still trying to figure it out.  All I know is that more people/beings will have the same energies as Jesus and others over time.

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When I was younger, even now, I’d start giggling or laughing when i’d hear a southern black woman say Jeesus! Jesus!… i thought it was funny; I just never understood that…

But now i understand… when you want to become a better person, you naturally move toward those beings or people or schools or books that have the energy you want…

You can hang out with one group of people and feel something negative… you can get this vibe… even if they don’t say anything to your face, something doesn’t feel right… so you switch direction…

You can hang out with another group of people and they are so high energy, and awesome fun and inspirational… all of a sudden you start acting/thinkin like those people…

You can think about anyone and they will think about you back (even if they are in a different world or level)… right now most of us can’t do this or don’t realize we do this… but as we develop it will be second nature…

Last week after i switched directions, I still was in pain from the anger… i go to borders… i read some of the new earth… he talks of pain bodies… how we refuse to forgive or hold memories and that feeds our pain bodies and we remain stuck in our position… I knew i had to let things go to move forward… but that was hard… so i started doin what these Jesus lovers do… I just tried to communicate with him and asked him how i can love like that where i wouldn’t hate… and right that second some country song came up about Jesus and how he uplifts the singer…

We get this feedback indirectly, I still see images of lincoln or gandhi or dr king every now and then… it’s like they are tryin to remind me of something… even if it’s on a magazine or an article… it just comes on the right time…

Like once I was upset and crying and hiding in my brothers closet so no one can see… there was this bookmark there from Roosevelt - it said Do what you can where you are with what you have.  It was like somehow he knew, so he wanted to tell me that…

That’s why I think this network is so entrenched or embedded into our earthly world, that we don’t notice it, yet it surrounds us…

You can contact whoever you wish (beyond time and space) and they can contact you back (whenever they wish or even when you don’t know them)… and it’s just by thinking and creating the right thoughts…

… So i guess i can call myself a christian and maybe a buddhist and maybe hindu and muslim and jain and sikh and any other school of thought out there, cuz there is truth to it all… it only needs to be packaged the right way for people to understand…

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Yesterday, I was tryin to use our car… for me the gas light came on and it stopped… then my brother uses it 20 minutes or so later and the car turns on… It was the same car, but we had 2 different experiences… in my reality the gas was really gone and the car could not function… in his reality there was plenty of gas in the car and the car did function fine…

It was the same car (although inconsistent in reliability)… but the experiences were different… it seems my experience contradicts my brothers experience… so one of us seems to be a liar… but both realities were true… We just got different information and thus created different conclusions and different realities…

It’s like a girl with a guy… the girl can only see a reality with a ring on her finger and they guy does not see that reality but still loves her… and as we develop we’ll find out that the guy is more right…

Jesus said there will be a time when no one will be given or taken in marriage.

Mystics and Saints perdicted a time when people and beings will have multiple experiences with multiple beings at the same time or differing times and locations and spaces.

And as we develop, we will know that it can happen, just by using the network in the right ways.

The only way to understand this power of energy inside of you is to actually try it with those you already are connected with… try to send thoughts or energies to people you love… even if they are far from you… see if they can pick it up… use cellphones less and try to tap into the established network arleady in place…

try to go back to the moment where you were sick… how was your thinking?  It seems like when we are in our most weakest and vulnerable moments we create the greatest powers… but you don’t have to get sick to tap into those powers…

you just have to recreate those same thoughts in the same ways… in pure form…

That is how energy can be transferred.

That is how love can be exchanged beyond sexuality… and as we get more connected… any love will be everyone’s love…

And anything that happens in those other worlds… with the better mindsets… will eventually be applied into this earthly world…

that means behaviors will eventually change… the world will not be the same… when the mindsets are transformed like that…